The Dilemma
I have a dilemma.
The last time I checked into this blog I had been on the waitlist for 100 days, I've been coping pretty well with the wait but now I have hit a wall. I've hit the point where I feel like I can not wait any longer. That I need an answer.
I know it sounds crazy, I'm only 22, but I've reached that point that I wanna start so called 'adult life', it's crazy. Don't get me wrong, my heart is still with Disney, I'm still on the waitlist for the CRP, but I've come so far, and waited so long I've started to over think about everything.
The plan was that I was going to wait for my 'potential' start date (after all you can still get rejected when you're waitlisted), hopefully go over to Walt Disny World and have an amazing year on the CRP, and then come home and start my Masters degree in Second World War Studies (yes I'm a history geek!)
But now, the realisation has hit me, if I do get on the CRP, if I do move out to America it will most likely be 2018-19, which means I won't start my masters degree until 2020, which means I won't finish it until 2022 as is a 2 year program.
I'll be 28 when I finish my masters, 28.
I honestly don't know if I can wait that long, if I can wait until the age of 28 to start 'adult life', all my friends around me are getting their lives together, and I'm here trying to escape adulthood for a few more years, and well, I don't know if I should.
I'm not one to vent all of my problems onto the internet, but this is the reality of the waitlist unfortunately. I'm stuck between something that will give me a year of happiness and a lifetime of memories, or something that will lead me to what I want to do for the rest of my life.
And I just can't decide.
I have until mid September to apply for my masters degree, and yet Disney said we won't be hearing back until the earliest September.
I've just hit the point where I don't know what to do and it's tough, I can't work it out right now, I simply don't know what I want more.
Until next time x
The last time I checked into this blog I had been on the waitlist for 100 days, I've been coping pretty well with the wait but now I have hit a wall. I've hit the point where I feel like I can not wait any longer. That I need an answer.
I know it sounds crazy, I'm only 22, but I've reached that point that I wanna start so called 'adult life', it's crazy. Don't get me wrong, my heart is still with Disney, I'm still on the waitlist for the CRP, but I've come so far, and waited so long I've started to over think about everything.
The plan was that I was going to wait for my 'potential' start date (after all you can still get rejected when you're waitlisted), hopefully go over to Walt Disny World and have an amazing year on the CRP, and then come home and start my Masters degree in Second World War Studies (yes I'm a history geek!)
But now, the realisation has hit me, if I do get on the CRP, if I do move out to America it will most likely be 2018-19, which means I won't start my masters degree until 2020, which means I won't finish it until 2022 as is a 2 year program.
I'll be 28 when I finish my masters, 28.
I honestly don't know if I can wait that long, if I can wait until the age of 28 to start 'adult life', all my friends around me are getting their lives together, and I'm here trying to escape adulthood for a few more years, and well, I don't know if I should.
I'm not one to vent all of my problems onto the internet, but this is the reality of the waitlist unfortunately. I'm stuck between something that will give me a year of happiness and a lifetime of memories, or something that will lead me to what I want to do for the rest of my life.
And I just can't decide.
I have until mid September to apply for my masters degree, and yet Disney said we won't be hearing back until the earliest September.
I've just hit the point where I don't know what to do and it's tough, I can't work it out right now, I simply don't know what I want more.
Until next time x
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